Everybody, I am taking a break from fandom.
I want to assure everybody that nothing is wrong, I just can't be a part of this for a while. I'm aware this will make it difficult for connectivity and all that, but I'm open on other venues. Please do email me, FB me, I'll still respond to PMs from LJ and Dreamwidth. I would love to still talk and be involved with all you beautiful people on my f-list, it's not you I'm stepping away from.
Again, there is no emergency, there is no situation irl I need fixed, please don't be worried. If/when I come back, it probably won't be until late June.
Love you all. XOXO
It's gotten to the point where I don't think I should do it all in one essay, because I expect it will likely end up being around 20k words at least if I hit every concept that I want to. How should I divide it? By topic? By character? By story arc? I'm thinking topically.
I feel sick.
I have the letter C!
1. Colette Brunel, from Tales of Symphonia - This chick is great. I know some people get annoyed at her because she's the super dumb ditz, but I love her to bits. She's so genuine, so happy, so giving. She has ridiculous amounts of virtue that she doesn't compromise on. She feels extreme shame and guilt for each and every failure, even counting the desire to live when her mission calls for her death. Colette takes what people say at face value, and while that can make for some silly moments, it expresses a beautiful faith in others that you don't see in real life. I also have a weakness for the martyr types, and she definitely fits. She's quite broken in her own way, with an almost pathological tendency to put others before herself no matter what it costs her.
2. Charlie, from Dead Like Me - Ah, a minor, obscure character from a minor, obscure show. Charlie was killed when he was around nine or ten years old, and like all children who become reapers, he reaps pets. Helped by the fact that Charlie is absolutely adorable, the idea of this kid (who is now technically like seventeen years old but still in his ten-year old body) living by himself on the streets, trying to get by while he does his job by reaping pets and not fitting in really anywhere... Man, it almost hurt. I have younger brothers, so maybe that's why I was yelling at George to offer a place to stay or something. He's still basically a child, man. His presence helped develop the idea of reaper culture, that there are different departments and types of reapers, things that the undead do. Looove it.
3. Cassie, from Animorphs - Hm. I'm gonna be up front and say I have problems with Cassie. I think it's totally great that she's the only one in the group who manages to keep a hold of compassion and morals throughout probably the entire series. Sometimes I'm yelling at everyone else to listen to her... And sometimes I'm yelling at her because I think she says some dumb things. When I have a problem with Cassie is when she talks like she has the moral high ground, and it gets my hackles up because it sounds condescending and pretentious. And I don't mean like, "oh, she bugs me sometimes", I mean like I'm boiling in my own fury at her. I have been close to throwing some of the books across the room because I can't have an actual argument with a fictional character. I can't think of specific examples of the top of my head, but it would usually have to do with her trying to make the others in the group feel guilty for some really random morphing ethics question. Maybe it's because my ideas of how souls work and what constitutes an infringement on human and animal rights are really, really different from Cassie's, but yeah. Hurgh.
4. Chuck, from Chuck - I can't even tell you how much I adore Chuck. He's pretty much the most perfect audience proxy ever. I never feel like I'm overshadowed by Chuck's accomplishments, in the ways he surpasses me. Chuck is the kind of hero that makes me feel like I can actually do things. Watching him struggle, sometimes failing, sometimes succeeding... Man, I feel like I'm there. I've never known a moment when I wasn't all-out cheering for him. Him being a nerd who starts doing real good for the world, at the sacrifice of fame, money, etc. is great. He's the kinda guy I wanna be. I'm so sad the show is almost over. We hardly knew ye, Chuck.
5. Castiel, from Supernatural - I'm going to be honest. I haven't actually seen a full episode of Supernatural with Castiel in it. Okay, that's not true, but not one where he was central to the plot of the episode. I've seen a crap-ton of clips of Youtube with Castiel in it. Maybe enough to actually get what he's all about, maybe not. Barring all the problems I have with Supernatural's really stupid theological ideas (I realize it's a show and it's allowed to say what it likes about spirituality), I do like the idea of Castiel in the sense that he makes a good story. Not fantastic with the theology. I think Castiel is a great, great character. The dry innocence, the way he's trying to figure out what the heck is going on in the universe... There's so much deep emotion associated with his character, and I really like that. He can be funny, he can be intense, and Misha Collins nails every scene I've seen him in. The whole "I'm looking for God, oh he doesn't exist, so I'm gonna be God now"... Urgh.
Okay, I've been rewatching Supernatural, happy now? It's been stunted by the removal of most good video hosts and Canadian Netflix doesn't have it, so that's my excuse for not having a greater understanding of Castiel and his motivations, aight?
Man, the Christmas service this morning at my church was really awesome. Rather than just preaching or whatever, the pastor opened the floor and just asked if anyone wanted to share. So I got to hear stories from the people in my church about how they came to become believers, stuff that's going on in their lives, hopes for the future... It was so awesome. Everyone who shared had really powerful things to say, some were emotional for both happy and sad reasons. I learned things I never knew about people I've known for years... There is no such thing as a boring, generic God-story.
I'll be doing the meme now, so many at once because my answers to them were pretty short.
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Oh, guys, I want to see Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol so bad. I want to see it almost totally for Jeremy Renner, who I decided I loved after watching the Hurt Locker about three times - man, I've gotta buy that one - and he's going to be in the Avengers movie, so. =)
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Now I've been watching the new season of the Mentalist. I wonder what I'm going to spend my time doing if/when I ever leave fandom. I don't see myself ever abandoning media, but I assume it will probably happen to some degree when I have kids or something.
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Christmas time is hereeeeeeeeeeeee
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In other news, check out this awesome fanmade video I found on TVTropes! The Batman Complex awwwww, yeah.
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So my life lately... Mm... Staying up stupid late because I can, getting up at noon, and entire days are spent watching How I Met Your Mother. I'm starting season 7 tomorrow and I just started watching some days ago! I skipped some episodes, like, half a seasons' worth, but hey, it leaves some mysteries when I do catch up.
I really want to be sleeping better. ;____; NEW YEARS RESOLUTION!!
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Last minute addition, holy crap, I forgot I have a midterm the day I get back that I need to study for
And I wasn't lying, I have no idea who I stole this meme from. If it was you, then feel free to say so, I'll edit and give you cred. Whoever it is is probably on my f-list, but who knows.
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I can't even phrase sentences properly. I'm so tired.
You know, comic books was always a line in nerd-dom I thought I would never cross. But it turns out comic books are spectacular.
Does anyone else read comics? Anyone following any of DC's new 52?
On to the meme!
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I mean, I firmly believe I'll be in a better place where I probably won't care, but right now I do, lololol